THE TRIUMPH OF A LOST SOUL December 26, 2008
Posted by arun in Philosophy, happenings, life, personal, thoughts.4 comments
Slept thro’ the days and wept thro’ the nights,
Sought wisdom from a few undefeated knights,
Leaped thro’ many dreams, did you hear the screams?
Wasn’t aware I’d get caught in one
Turned out to be the worst nightmare!
If you’d ask now, I couldn’t care,
But it was insane; allow me to explain.
So consumed by cherubic innocence and beauty,
Lost my profundity,
With the world suddenly becoming two dimensional,
Failed to realize that suffering was optional,
Her feelings were never real but virtual,
Spite of the grotesque gorgeousness,
Blinded with the thought of grasping divine,
I decided to trade a valuable station,
Immaturity for sublime!
Only to bring me down,
I caved and dug my own grave.
Sanctity of my life got trivialized,
Think of it, I realized,
I lived with no color but gray of all shades,
Only to haunt me till my memory fades.
In the cobbled streets of my mind braided with topiaries,
I tried to savor those paltry moments,
Compassion with superfluous narcissism,
With the slightest of compunction,
but a subtle conciliatory tone of guilt,
Fear, tears and self-loathing on an infinite loop
Where the message never got through,
The melodrama seemed so magical
aha, how illogical?
A confused xeric soul in distress,
I can only wish and bless.
I wasn’t sure before,
But now I know; I will never obtain closure.
I snapped out of the dream, within a dream?
A blaze of light with a conjuring voice embraced me,
“I came to save you, your disheartened soul”, she said as I smelt her gleaming aura,
“Will you stay to heal me?” I asked,
What do you think? She replied.
NOBODY TO BLAME April 15, 2008
Posted by arun in life, personal, thoughts.Tags: bliss, Confusion, end, lost, meaning, restlessness, weird
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Maladjusted, confused and incapacitated, on a rainy day and a lugubrious weather, with an espresso on one hand, and a bunch of songs playing from my iPod connected to my laptop, couldn’t help but set out to spit out my vague and strewn thoughts as vaguely as possible. Suddenly, every song you have heard all day seems to have a profound implication, an enormous benthic sense. You try not to linger on this one particular thought but you cant stop. At times, you don’t know what you are thinking about. And at times, you don’t even know you are thinking about something and a friend wakes you from the momentary solitary disposition. Your heart is perturbing. You think you might be satisfied if you could rationalize the happenings and try to put the blame on someone, even if it is you. At least then, you can find peace. You want to put an end, but damn, there is no one to blame. It is not exactly anyone’s fault why what’s happening is happening. You knew what you were getting into. You yielded into temptation. There is no easy way out. You smile for no reason when you are in a bus, you realize what you are doing and then laugh at yourself for being so lost. Sometimes even curse yourself for being so gullible and vulnerable.
All this balderdash for what? Remembering the Auld Lang Syne? Or an outcome of your unstable and errant thought-process? You think you were in control of everything, that you handle the balance of the syncretism of your emotional and rational/logical decision making skills efficiently. And therefore, you expect a state of eclat, a feel of ebullience as always. You think you can handle yourself with the aplomb of the capable man you thought you were. But, you never knew when melancholy struck you, let you get lost in the midst of stygian caves. And then all you do is totter and totter and totter. Even the slightest susurrus tempts you, your eyes reflect pain, affection and helplessness all at the same instant. You are the anomaly in the equation and its not going to work, it will never, its not logical.
Do you accept the choice?? Would you let it go?? As of me, I don’t want to answer it. I am afraid I may not like the answer. Not now. So much for my tomfoolery, I winced owing to restlessness… And then, out of no where, there was absolute silence, a feeling as light as a feather, that I hoped and longed for…
there were no thoughts, no confusion…. and there she was!! What do I do?
I should have known my moiety by now.
LAUGHING WITHOUT SMILING February 12, 2008
Posted by arun in entertainment, humor, random.Tags: awesome, cool, crazy, crazy guys!, creative, dawdling, Funny, genius, hilarious!!, laughter, LFMAO, smile, wierd, wry, youtube
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Another awesome piece of crap!!
OMG, I LMFAO
ROCKY XI February 12, 2008
Posted by arun in entertainment, humor, movies, random.Tags: comedy, Funny, hilarious!!, humour, Rocky I, Rocky II, Rocky III, Rocky is back, Rocky IV, Rocky V, Rocky VI, Rocky XI, Sylvestor Stallone, youtube
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THE QUAGMIRE OF ENTANGLED CHOICES February 12, 2008
Posted by arun in Philosophy, life, personal, thoughts.Tags: Aishwarya rai, anger, bitch, Bond movie, Choice, decisions, future generation, india, Jamesbond, karma, life, maturity, nation, Philosophy, probability, rage, rambling, students, thoughts
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During one of those meaningless pondering moments, it came to my mind, “Don’t do the crime if you can’t do the time” which off late goes by the saying “Karma is a bitch”. However, if you think about, it masquerades in the form of “choice”. Each and every stage in everyone’s life is governed by choice. It goes by another menacing term which scientists often use, usually when they don’t know what the hell they are talking about or couldn’t corroborate their facts: “Probability”. Choice embraces you tightly, masking you under the percept of “hope”, but with ingratiating smile and unctuous desires to bite you in the ass. Unfortunately, we all realize only after it happens. We can’t always make it right.
I can not help but wonder at my ignorance over these years. I have always bitched over the fact that my parents have been over-protective. They have and are guiding me through every stage of my life, with their dreams of seeing me as a member of the erudite community. Now, this is karma’s second messenger “expectation”
. But, when I look back now, I understand they had to be over-protective because they knew, I wasn’t ready to play gambling with choices. I was only gloating with pride because everything was happening my way. It took me a while, a period of 20+ years to gain some perspective. But enough about me.
My concerns are truly about the next generation. I don’t know whether to call this ignorance or frustration. You might remember the incident that happened December of last year in India, where an 8th standard kid shot his classmate because he was the hector (bully) of his class!! He made a faltering decision that potentially alters his life for ever. He foundered utterly in controlling his emotions, his rage overpowered him! These incidents are starting to happen more than ever in India. It seriously troubles me, I can’t even imagine the plight if this trend were to continue. The attitude of one to handle tirades or bully appropriately through proper channels, if not concluded with a descent conversation, would have been the best choice for everyone. Taking drastic measures over a tenuous argument or a couple of school-fights, as in this case, puts every one in state of misery! The kid says “I did nothing wrong, he deserved this!” How more vindictive can it get? I feel as if the endurance limit is dwindling…:(
The important thing to realize is, you shouldn’t be afraid of making choices. You simply can’t be afraid. Instead, you have to choose wisely always. Its an ever lasting battle. For example, if Aishwarya Rai hadn’t reneged on a proffer to act in a Bond movie, I would have stopped watching Bond movies. I feel she would be an ersatz replacement. She just isn’t Bond material, in spite of her poignant looks. Good choice Ash. ha ha.
As I started, the number of things I wanted to write about kept on piling up and I couldn’t organize or keep it related enough. I didn’t want to get all philosophical in conveying my concerns, rather, to keep it as terse as possible. I felt the topic was quite heavy, therefore ending with a silly dry humor. But then, hey, these are my “ramblings” aren’t they!
CSI – IMPOSSIBLE TO ESCAPE February 11, 2008
Posted by arun in TV shows, biology, chemistry, entertainment, math, physics, science, technology.Tags: crime, crime scene investigation, CSI, DNA, drama, evidence, finger print, gil grissom, investigation, las vegas, mac taylor, new york, scene, suspect, technology, thriller, tv-show
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CSI, Crime Scene Investigation, as many of you might already know, is one of the best featured TV-shows
of its genre, Crime/Drama/Thriller. It comes in three flavors, CSI – Las Vegas, New York and Miami. I have seen only a couple of episodes in Miami, up-to-date on Las Vegas and catching up on New York. Las Vegas was the first and arguably the best, this bias may be because I saw it first. Usually the show consists of a team of 5-6 CSIs. The distinction that sets this show apart is its uniqueness in handling crime scenes by relying only on evidence. Gil Grissom, the head in Las Vegas and Mac Taylor in New York, whose characters are understood to be complex but personable with distinguished intuitiveness and acumen, and immaculate rationality. They don’t connive to violations of law nor do they truckle to threats. In this 1 hour featured show, it doesn’t always result in solving 1 or more crimes within the period. At times, it gets personal putting the lives of CSIs themselves into jeopardy.
The CSI characters each are developed in an unique and exquisite manner with each having their own issues, dark periods, test of endurance, flash backs etc… The show uses state of the art technology in addition to intricate attention to details, in particular, it has a keen inclination towards microscopic particles, fibres and glasses. It deals with numerous fields covering almost all aspects of science and arts which begs the question regarding the voluminous and universal knowledge the CSI team possesses. The show also uses a lot of technical expressions (a result from an analysis or experiment) which remains gobbledygook to one with limited or no knowledge in that field. One thing, if I understood from this show is that, a dead body speaks more than the one alive!
From the multitude of episodes, you will be caught no matter how intelligently you plan the crime. Why? Because you have no freaking clue of how many things are unique!! There is no perfect crime!
But at times, clues in context to technology related to electronics/computers which is my area of expertise relatively in opposition to say, biology, I find them ridiculous and funny (not always). For exam
ple, in CSI – New York, Season 03, Episode 02, a man is found dead in a jewelry store which is robbed by 3 women clad in same outfit and hard to distinguish between. On analyzing the crime scene (where all the glasses are broken and jewels are looted), they come to know that, the broken glasses doesn’t have any stress marks indicating directionality (when you strike a glass, the broken glass shows a pattern denoting the direction of impact). From a witness in the crime scene who claimed that a dog barked just before the glass shattered, they discover that they used a “frequency device”. Now comes the funny part.
CSI(1): how could one do that?
CSI(2) A sine wave generator. It is a program that manipulates sound. You download the output to a mp3 player and you are ready.
CSI(1): ahan! Check all web sites. Anyone who deals with this kind of software. Cross check with the name “Beth”.CSI(2): (after some other scenes) The name you gave was good. A women by the name of Beth Lawson bought a sine wave generator program last month from an online distributor. It turns out there was no forwarding address in the package she ordered. The delivery man explained her as “one hot blondie” and she studies “physics” in college.
CSI(1): Beth was studying physics, Natalie was studying engineering…?!!
CSI(2): yes, both indulging in homicide!
I know! People from engineering background, I need not even explain this. You are already ROTFL. The concept is very true, using high frequency vibration, you could break a glass. But, for a student studying in engineering and physics, writing their own code of a sine wave “program” will take less than 10 seconds rather than placing an online order!! OMG! cracking the case with an online order for a sine wave program purchased by engineering students… it must be a real dull college.
There may be some similar technicalities in other fields too. Otherwise, the show is wondrous, one of a kind. Awe striking graphics & animation, good continuity, the reality in posing the dead bodies, the action, car chases, bomb blasts, internal story line, very little provocative content, character development, technology etc… are inexplicable. Also the details they analyze including finger prints, DNA, blood spatter, fibre particles, glass particles, even sand, paints, acids and drug tests, bugs, weapons including guns for their mm calibers and other instruments resulting in death by stabbing. Anything and everything on the Earth is analyzed!!
Its therefore impossible to escape… BEWARE!
